Ever

Terri Sutro

Their horses flew over the barren ground.  Faster.  Gotta move faster.  Gotta keep running.  Can’t stop yet.  They’re still back there.

 He permitted himself a glance behind.  Kid was riding just as hard as he was, his face clenched in exhausted desperation.  Heyes knew he looked no different.  He pulled ahead and swung off the main road onto a grassy path.  He knew Kid would be angry.  ‘Stay on the main road.  Better chance to find good cover.’  Yep, that’s what he’d be hearin’.  Especially if this path turned out to be a dead end.   He grimaced at his own choice of words.  Dead end.  Well let’s hope not.’   Something.  He didn’t know what it was.  A feeling.  A sudden impulse.  The scent of wildflowers, of long uncut meadow grass.  Something guided his hand as he turned his horse onto this path.   ‘Lack of sleep.  Yea that’d be what it was you durned fool.  Serve you right if it turned out to really be a dead end.’  A word crossed his mind.  One he didn’t often allow himself to think of.  ‘Home’.   He shook it off.  More’n likely just needin’ a couple of good meals. 

He slowed his horse down as he approached a wide parcel of green overlooking a clear lake.  The wildflowers painted splotches here and there and fragranced the air. 

“Well will ya look at that.”  Heyes reined in his horse at the edge of a meadow.

 Kid pulled up  beside him at first slumping in the saddle, eyes closed.  The first moment of rest in days.  At Heyes’ question he looked up, alert again to whatever danger was there.  Knowing he should have spotted it first.  That was his job.   He rubbed his eyes, bloodshot from too much dust and too little sleep and squinted into the sun. 

“Now what.”  Curry muttered.

“Over there, Kid.”  Heyes pointed straight ahead.    

They’d been riding for days, finally losing the posse that seemed determined to be the ones that put Hannibal Heyes and Kid Curry in the Wyoming Territorial Prison. 

Heyes had managed to once again take complete responsibility for their situation, blaming himself for playing that one last hand of poker.    Waiting just a bit too long.  Not reading recognition in the eyes of the man sitting across from him.  Too intent on winning just one more hand.  Now the considerable amount of money in his pocket seemed unimportant. 

It had been a familiar conversation as they rode hard out of that town.  Heyes saying he should’a done it differently, paid more attention.  Kid telling him as long as one of them was payin’ attention that was all that mattered, and can we just get outta here and talk about it later?

So they rode.  And rode.  And made do with cold camps so as not to draw any unwanted attention from a campfire’s smoke.  And chewed on hardtack, not daring to hunt the game they saw all around them for fear the sound of gunfire would draw the posse to them.  

Now they were both bone tired and just looking for a place to rest up. 

“See ‘em Kid?”  He paused, feeling suddenly replenished, his voice lighter.  “Been a long time.”

Kid Curry’s clear blue eyes went where Heyes was pointing.  He relaxed in the saddle.  It was the first time that Heyes had sounded like himself in days.  He looked at his partner.  Heyes was smiling, leaning back in the saddle.    “Yea, a long time Heyes.  You remember that summer?  The one just before….”  Kid stumbled over the words, feeling the long ago hurt still present in both of them.  “…well before.”  He turned his attention to the scene in front of him. 

 “Yea, I guess that would’a been it.  Seems like forever ago doesn’t it Kid?”  Heyes looked at his cousin.

“Yea, forever ago.”  Kid met those deep brown eyes.  A long buried memory passed between them before Heyes looked away. 

Neither spoke for a while, both remembering a happier time. 

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It had been a warm early summer day.   The Kansas countryside hadn’t yet become so hot and dry that a great adventure was impossible.   Two little boys knelt in the dust of a barn, heads together; planning their escape from the chores they knew they should have been doing. 

“Barns’ll just hafta wait.  I wanna go see the lake.  Never had a lake right there.  Come on Jed, you wanna see it too.”  Hannibal Heyes could be very convincing.  He didn’t usually have to try real hard to convince his cousin.  Today’s adventure was much more important than cleaning out the barn at the Curry farm.   The lure of a brand new lake formed at the bend of a usually thin stream.   “No reason for that storm to come through like it did if’n we weren’t supposed to go see what it made.”

“Yea, but Pa’s gonna be real mad if he comes back from town and the barn’s not cleaned out.”  There was a momentary doubt in the younger boy’s eyes. 

“Aw we’ll be back in plenty of time.  You comin’?  He looked at the blond head that bobbed in suddenly eager agreement. 

With matched smiles and a bandanna filled with apples and some surreptitiously snatched cookies, the two set off. 

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 “Think there are tadpoles in there, Han?”  Jedediah Curry was half walking half hopping across the wet rocks that rimmed the lake.  His bare feet squished as he moved from rock to rock. 

“Don’t see why not.   Course them ‘poles are gonna be clear over ta the next county with all the noise you’re makin’.”  Hannibal Heyes cupped his hands in the cool water and splashed in on his face.  Running his hands through his dark hair, he grinned waiting for Jed to catch on. 

Jed froze for a moment and stood up.  He looked over to where Hannibal was sitting.   The older boy smiled broadly.  “Aw Han, cut it out.”  He was always caught off guard by his cousin’s teasing.  He grinned back, squatting on the slick rocks, staring intently into the clear water willing a ‘pole to swim by.   

Hannibal watched his cousin concentrate on any movement in the water.  Just to make sure Jed didn’t fall in or anything.  Only ten himself, he still took responsibility for Jed.  Two of them did everything together.  Well, ‘cept that time when Jed went to Philadelphia.  But that all got worked out.  Ma said they were like two peas in a pod.   Sometimes she called them night and day.  He didn’t quite understand that.  He’d have to remember to ask his Ma what she meant.  She always explained stuff to him when he asked.   The sun felt good on his face.   He dunked his feet in the cool water.  His eyes slowly closed. 

The splash startled him out of his reverie.  “Han!!”  Jed was flailing in the water, splashing and kicking.   “Han, help me!”   There was scared urgency in his voice.

“Jed, I’m comin’.   Hang on.”  The boy rushed across the rocks, slipping and staggering in his haste to reach the spot where his cousin had fallen.

Jed struggled to keep his head above water, all the while screaming for rescue. 

Kneeling on the rocks Hannibal stuck his hands out.  “Jed, here grab my hand.  Come on you can do it.”  He stretched his hands out as far as he could, but Jed seemed to be just beyond his grasp.   Then he was gone, disappearing under the water.  “Jed?   Jed!!!”  Hannibal screamed his cousin’s name as he dove into the water. 

He surfaced after a moment gasping for air and fighting the panic he was feeling.    He forced himself to calm down.  Taking as deep a breath as he could muster he arched up and prepared to dive into the water again.  Familiar laughter stopped him and as he paddled to stay above water,  he looked up to locate the sound.  Amazed relief crossed his face when he saw his cousin standing on the rocks.

“Hey Han, think you scared all them tadpoles off, I can’t find a one.”  The boy’s laughter rang in the quiet afternoon. 

Hannibal sputtered out some undistinguishable comments, before he met his cousin’s sparkling and right now mischievous blue eyes.  He started laughing himself.   “Tadpoles, huh.” His own deep brown eyes twinkled at the game he and Jed had been playing all their lives.  This time his cousin had won.  But there’d be other games. 

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Once again the two men met each other’s eyes.  Both were smiling.   The noise of the two little boys playing in the lake carried across the still meadow to where they sat.

“Lake sure looks invitin’ don’t it Kid?” 

“Yep, real invitin’ Heyes.”

The silence hung in the air while both men considered what they should do; two men refusing to acknowledge that they both shared the same crazy thought.

“Think that posse’s still out there Kid?”

“Posse’ll always be out there Heyes.”

Both men stared intently at the lake and the children playing. 

“Think there are any ‘poles in that lake, Heyes?”

“S’pose there’s only one way to find out Kid.” 

They finally met each other’s eyes, sparkling blue eyes to dancing brown.  And they both knew they just had to do it. 

Caution abandoned, they spurred their horses to a gallop eager to find something that neither could actually describe.  They just knew they had to find it.  Regardless of the risk. 

They raced across the meadow chasing each other with the friendly competition that they’d practiced forever.  Shouting back and forth at each other, teasing each other furiously.  All the pent up tension of the past few weeks thrown off in the sheer joy of a long ago memory and the feel of flying on the back of their horses.

They pulled up short near the lake to the sight of two little boys chest deep in clear water, eyes wide in fear and surprise.  The taller one moved in front of the other. 

Heyes and Kid swung down from the horses in unison.  Heyes looked around.  Yes, this was right.  Posse be damned.  There’d be no posse today.  No running.  No hiding.  No aliases.  No long ago horrors.  No nightmares.   Just two little boys, looking for a once upon a time moment of innocence in the Colorado sun.

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“Heyes?”  Kid didn’t have to look for his partner to know where he was and what he was doing. 

“Yep, just like it was Kid.  Just don’t fall in this time.”  Heyes was already at the edge of the meadow, stripping off his jacket, boots, hat. 

“Worth it to see you try to ‘rescue’ me again.”  Gunbelt, jacket, boots removed with hasty fingers.  Kid stopped and looked at the water  “Think it’s deep enough?” 

“How deep’s the lake?”  Heyes frowned at the two boys.  Their faces showed the fear they still felt.  They’d moved closer together.  

Kid looked over at them.  Not any older than he and Heyes when… “Don’t be scared fellas.  We’re not gonna hurt you.  Just want’a share the lake for a bit.  How deep is it?”

The boys looked at each other and shrugged.  The tone of Kid’s voice seemed to be enough for the taller of the two. “Pretty deep in the middle.  Least ways deep as you be tall.” 

The smaller boy looked at his friend, who nodded that it seemed all right.  The fear in his face seemed to dissipate to curiosity.  “You want us to get out?”

“Nope.  More’n enough water for the four of us.”   There was a boyishness eagerness in Heyes’ voice.

 Two smiles met.  Two grown up smiles that suddenly weren’t.   They didn’t need words.  They both knew what the other was thinking. 

The two ‘real’ little boys stood in the water watching the two men create a flurry of clothing on the long grass of the meadow.  They glanced at each other with looks that said ‘Crazy, for sure.  Grown ups.  They’re all crazy.’ 

Stripped to long john bottoms Heyes and Kid again looked at one another.  With exuberant shouts they took off running, simultaneously reaching the edge of the wooden planks that made up the makeshift diving platform and diving into the still water. 

“You’re still slower.”  Heyes choked on water and air as he surfaced shaking the cold water from his hair. 

“And you’re still dreamin’.”  Kid broke water.   He too shook the water from his hair.  “Come on over fellas.  Water’s just right.”  He spoke to the boys who hadn’t stopped watching since the two men joined them. 

“You two family?”  The smaller of the boys moved closer to Heyes.

“Yup.  Cousins.  How ‘bout you two?”  Heyes extended his hand, an offer of equality the child seemed unused to.  “Name’s Joshua Smith.   His is Thaddeus.  Thaddeus  Jones.”  The boy hesitated just a moment before he accepted the larger hand. 

“Will MacIntyre.  That’s my cousin Tommy Duncan.  He’s older.  But I’m braver.”  Will spoke with the confidence only a child has. 

“Are not.  You just think you are.  Anyway I’m smarter.”  Tommy stuck his hand out at Kid.  

“Well it’s nice to meet you Tommy.”  Kid grasped the smaller hand.   He knew he wasn’t the only one who saw the resemblance in these two young cousins.  Partners.  He hoped they’d learn what that word meant through growing up slow and easy.  Not like him and Heyes.  Their partnership was forged when the very first practical joke was played.  Toughened through years of thinking through each other’s eyes.  Sealed with the knowledge that their lives were in each other’s hands.

“Ever think it isn’t which of you is braver or smarter but how you work together.”  He glanced at Heyes, then at the far shore of the lake. 

Heyes caught his glance.   Partners and friends from the earliest either could remember.  They balanced each other’s strengths and weaknesses.  Some thought a perfect balance.  The bankers and railroad men usually used words other than perfect.  They seldom needed to say what they were thinking.  They usually just knew. 

“That what you two do?”  Will didn’t seem convinced.  

Heyes nodded.

“He’s bigger’n you.”  He pointed at Kid. 

Heyes grinned.  “Maybe.  But I’m faster that him.”  There was the essence of the two of them.  Pushing each other just a bit further.  Heyes the dreamer.  Kid the realist.  Roles reversed when Kid needed to dream.  Or Heyes needed reality.  

“Bet you’re not.”  Tommy stood next to his new friend. 

“Bet he is.”  Will couldn’t let his friend go undefended.

“Feel like a race, partner?”  Kid asked innocently still looking at the shore. 

“Maybe.”  Heyes drew out the word.   There was mischief in his voice when he started to speak gain. “Doesn’t seem fair though, me bein’ the faster swimmer and all.  Hate ta see you lose again.”  He continued to stare at the shore.  “Course might be different if one of these fellas could be convinced to help you out.”

“So, who starts?”  Kid looked at Heyes. 

“What’cha think Will?  If I wait over on that bank, you think you can out swim Whatshisname over there?”  Heyes and his ‘new’ partner looked at the still water and the land about a hundred yards ahead. 

Will looked carefully at Kid.  His small face scrunched up in thoughtful consideration.  “I could try.” 

“Nope.  That wasn’t what I asked.  Can you out swim him?”  Heyes looked intently at the boy.

Will was silent for a moment.   Then he smiled a broad smile of understanding.  “Yup.  Sure can.  Any ole day.” 

Heyes laughed.  “Thaddeus?”

“Well Tommy, sounds like those two think they can beat us.  What d’ya think?”  Kid looked as serious as Heyes.

“Well…”  The boy looked up at Kid.  “No sir.  Not a chance.” 

“Deal then.  Once up and back.  First man across touches his partner’s hand, second man dives in and finishes up here.  Right?”  Heyes once again stuck his hand out.  This time to Tommy. 

Kid did the same to Will. 

Finally they reached for each other’s hands.  “One more time partner?”  Heyes’ soft voice conveyed a thousand memories.

“One more time Cousin.”  Kid’s answer spoke of complete understanding of those memories. 

“Who starts?”  Will’s voice broke the quiet.

Heyes cleared his throat.  “Well, guess we should trade off.  One of you, one of us.  How does that sound?  I gotta coin we could flip, but it’s over there.”  He pointed to the pile of clothing.

Kid just laughed.  “Never did trust that coin of yours Joshua.  You and Tommy start.  Will and I’ll take the second half.  That ok with everyone?” 

Three heads nodded agreement.  Didn’t need to be a prize.  Just the race itself.  And the cool water on a warm summer day. 

“On your mark.  Get set.  Go!!” 

Heyes and Tommy hit the water at the same time Kid said those words.  Heyes broke clear first.

“Come on Tommy.  You can do it.  Do it like we done before.”  Will seemed to forget Tommy was on the ‘other’ team. 

Kid didn’t remind him.   “Come on Will.  We’d better get to our places.” 

The two ran to the other side of the lake all the while yelling encouragement to their teammates. 

Heyes touched Will’s hand first and the boy dove into the water with all the strength he had. 

Tommy’s head appeared and he reached for Kid’s hand.  Kid dove in and started his pursuit of Will. 

Heyes helped pull Tommy out of the water and they re-traced Kid’s and Will’s steps back to the starting point. 

“Come on Will. You’re winnin’.  Don’t let him catch you.”  Tommy was jumping up and down in excitement. 

Heyes just smiled.  “You don’t really think he can win do you?” 

“Sure he can.  He’s the best swimmer in the whole county.  You just wait and see.”  Tommy frowned at the idea that his cousin could lose.

Two heads bobbed in and out of the water coming closer and closer to the two on land.  Those two on land shouting at the swimmers, urging them on.

“Come on Thaddeus.  You gonna let a kid beat you.”    Heyes’ called out,  purposefully teasing his partner.

“Come on Will, I’ll do your chores for a week if you win.”  Tommy was screaming and bouncing on the rocks. 

The swimmers approached the end.   The watcher’s shouts merged, encouraging the two on to the finish.  There.  There it was.  More shouts came.  And laughter too.  Hands extended to help the two out of the water. And hands extended in congratulations.       

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“Is too an elephant.  If’n you know so much what do you see.”   Tommy was lying on his back in the tall grass beside his cousin and the other two bigger little boys.   They’d flopped down side by side after the exertion of the race. 

“Ah, well there’s a dragon.”  Heyes pointed up at a cloud marbled in white and gray, passing in front of the sun. 

“Where?  I don’t see no dragon.”  Will scrunched over to look where Heyes was pointing, his dark eyes squinting into the sunlit sky.

“Ever seen a dragon?”  Heyes spoke softly not wanting to jar to peaceful moment.  

“You sayin’ I haven’t?”  Will was defensive.   “My pa’s read to me and showed me pictures.  This fella was rescuin’ this girl and he had to kill the dragon.”  There was an implied, ‘so there’ in the boy’s tone.

Heyes just smiled.  “So you see this one?”

The boy frowned as he searched the clouds for the dragon.  “I don’t see no dragon.” 

“Right there.  Straight up.”  Heyes took Will’s hand and pointed it to the cloud.  “See?  There’s his tail and his wings.”

“Maybe.”  The boy did not sound convinced.  He went back to admiring the tadpoles they’d collected and put in a glass jar. 

“Well, what do you see then?”  Heyes turned slightly to look at the boy.   Over that young shoulder he could see Kid dozing.   Tommy had long since given up the fight and drifted off. 

“Clouds.  Just clouds.”  The boy stopped looking.  In a moment he too was asleep.

Heyes looked at the sleeping boy.   Too young to not have dreams.   He traced the pattern in the sky with his finger.   “Nah.  Dragon.  Remember Kid?   Dragon.”  He looked over at his partner again.  Sound asleep.  Heyes just smiled.  ‘That’s ok Kid.  I’ll keep watch this time.’  He went back to outlining dragons in the sky. 

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“Hey Han!  Han where are you?”  Jedediah Curry nearly fell over his cousin lying still in the grass of the meadow near their farms.  “Han, you ok?”  It wasn’t like his cousin to be so still. Except for when he was sick that once.  Jed didn’t like that one bit.  His parents wouldn’t let him go visit.  Seemed like forever until he was allowed in.  He was scared that Han would be sickly like their friend Ethan.  Then there’d be no adventures.  Han was great at planning adventures.  He sunk slowly to the ground.  “Han?”  He lightly punched his cousin’s arm.  “Han come on.  Stop playin’.”

“Dragon.  See it Jed.  Just like Grandpa told us about.”  He pointed at the sky.  “I’m gonna find a dragon some day and a sword in a stone, just like King Arthur.” 

“I don’t see no dragon.  Where is it?  Come on Han, show me.”  The younger boy squirmed around so he was lying next to his cousin.  He shielded his eyes from the sun. 

“There, Jed.  Right over your head.”  The boy took his cousin’s hand and pointed it to the spot in the sky. 

“See?  There’s his nose, and his tail.  Looks like he’s breathin’ fire.” 

“Oh yea.  There he is.  I see him.  Look Han, he’s got wings.  Can he fly?”  Jed turned inquisitive blue eyes on his cousin.

“Sure.  Why he just decides where he wants to go and up and flies off.  Wouldn’t that be great Jed?  To just go where ya want, when ya want.  Doin’ whatever you decided to do.  Not havin’ to go to dances and wear collars and stuff.”

Jed laughed.  “Thought you liked grown up parties.”

“Well yea.  I do.  But not where I got to dance with girls.”  He was silent for a moment.  “Someday I’m gonna be just like that dragon.  I’m gonna go where I want and do what I want.  And have lots of money.”

“Can I go with you Han?  I wanna do stuff too.  And see stuff.”  He returned to cloud watching.  “Hey look Han.  I see an elephant.  Just like we saw in that book about the circus.  Look Han, d’ya see him?”

“Yea Jed, I see him.”  Hannibal’s voice was distracted, his mind wandering.  “Just like in the circus.” 

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“Don’t see a dragon, but that’s a pretty clear elephant.  You never could tell which animals those clouds really were Heyes.”  Kid exchanged glances with Heyes. 

“Remember those clouds Kid?”  There was a wistful note in Heyes voice that Kid did not miss.

“I remember the dance Heyes.  I didn’t think I’d ever be able to sit down again.”  He wrinkled his face at the memory.

“Yea, me too.  Well you shouldn’t have ruined that dance.  All the ladies had worked so hard on it.”  Heyes had a broad smile on his face. 

“Me?  I was just a kid.   You’re the one who did it.  I just got blamed.”  Kid was also smiling, feigning outrage.

“Not the way I remember it Kid.  I distinctly remember telling you to be careful with that black pepper shaker.” 

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“But ma, I don’t want to dance with her.”   Hannibal Heyes was pulling at his stiff collar.  The fact that it was a warm summer evening was not making it any easier on him.  Little boys were not made to enjoy stiff collars and this particular little boy was not of a mind to grin and bear it.  Even if that’s what his Pa said he should do.  “Can’t I just go listen to the stories Pa and the other men are tellin’?”

“No you may not.  You just go ask Rachel to dance. Go on now.”  His mother’s voice was soft but left him no choice.

“Yea Han.  Rachel’s waitin’ for ya.”  Jed always enjoyed it when he got a chance to tease the older boy.   He ignored the black look that was directed at him. 

“None of that Jedediah Curry.  Your turn will come soon enough.”  Maureen Heyes never could entirely keep the scolding tone in her voice when talking to her son or his best friend.  Somehow one or the other of them would smile and before she knew it she’d be laughing with them.  They were both good boys.  Just curious.  And mischievous.  She met her nephew’s eyes.  Right now they were so distressed, she almost laughed. 

“Yes ma’am.”  He sounded sincere, but his eyes said not if I can help it.

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Hannibal Heyes took a deep breath.    He took one last look at his Ma, who, rather than giving him the reprieve he hoped for, sent him to his doom with a shooing gesture of her hands.  He chose to ignore his cousin who was choking back laughter.  He straightened his shoulders and marched stiffly across the room to where the girls stood, expectantly waiting to be asked to dance.  Terrified that they’d be the ones left behind.  

The furniture had been pushed back along the walls of the Church Hall leaving the entire center of the room empty.  Nowhere to hide.  Hannibal found he was suddenly very warm.        

The group of girls watched him walk across the room.  Straightening Sunday dresses.  Putting on their very best smiles.  He was younger that a lot of them.  But those dark eyes and that dimpled grin had caught the attention of most of them.  And it was almost the last dance.  They all looked hopefully at him. 

Oblivious to all of the preening that was going on, Hannibal walked up to his cousin.  Standing even straighter, he stuck his hand out at the pretty girl in pink.

 “Ma says I hafta dance with you.”  He wore a serious frown on his face as though this was about the same as going to church every Sunday.  He didn’t know exactly why he had to do it, but he knew he had to, cause that’s what his Ma had said. 

Tears formed in the girl’s blue eyes.  “What makes you think I’d dance with you Hannibal Heyes.  I think you’re the most horrid boy I know.”  And with that she ran out of the room. 

Hannibal looked confused.  He didn’t think the girl was supposed to cry and run away.   It was, however, his first ‘grown-up’ dance, and he wasn’t entirely sure what ‘was’ supposed to happen. 

The other girls were giggling and pointing at the door.  And at him.  They were whispering to each other behind tiny hands.  He kept thinking it was easier looking for tadpoles with Jed.  He’d never figure girls out. 

He looked back at his Ma.  She had a look on her face that told him he’d better fix this.  He opened his mouth to say something.  Taking one more look at his mother, and seeing her look get even darker, he decided on a course of action.   He followed the path the girl had taken and found her sitting on the old porch swing behind the Church Hall.  The lights from the Hall were bright enough to let him see that her face was wet from crying. 

“Rachel?  I’m sorry.  What’d I do?  I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings.  Really.  Didn’t think I did.”  He went and sat beside her.

 “Well you did.  No go away and leave me alone.  I hate you.  I hate all boys.”   She refused to look at him. 

“Aw Rachel, you can’t hate me.  Jed and me are best friends, partners.  You can’t hate your brother’s partner.  Just can’t be done.  Come on back in, ok?  Ma’s gonna be real mad if I don’t dance with you.”  He fished around in his pocket and came out with a bandanna.  Well it was a close to a handkerchief as he had.  He handed it to her and hoped it would help convince her of his sincerity.  It didn’t seem to be working.  New tears were forming in the girl’s eyes.  The memory of the look on his Ma’s face made him swallow.  “Rachel?  If you dance with me, I’ll give you that blue marble I won off’n Jed last week.”  Hannibal really liked that marble, but under the circumstances it seemed like a reasonable offer. 

The girl turned to him, appraising him and his offer with irritation. She was almost two years older than he was and loved reminding him of how grown up she was.  She sighed.  “What am I going to do with a marble, Hannibal?   Girls don’t play with marbles.”  She studied his face.   Had he suffered enough?  “Oh all right.  I suppose I can give it back to Jed for his birthday.”  She rose, almost regally, from the swing and offered him her hand. 

Hannibal looked at her face for a moment.  Drawing a deep breath and wearing a look of supreme martyrdom, he  slowly reached into his pocket, pulled out the marble and dropped in into her hand. 

Rachel looked at the marble then at the boy.  Then she started laughing.  “Oh Hannibal you’re hopeless.”  Her hand closed around the marble.  “Come on.  I’ll let you dance with me.  Even if you are the worst dancer I know.”  She flounced by him and up the path back to the Hall.

Hannibal stared after her for a moment.  “Girls.”  He shook his head as though that would help him understand what had just happened.  It didn’t seem to help.  He gave up trying and ran to catch up with her. 

His Ma was on the steps of the hall when the two returned.  “Rachel honey are you all right?”  She tilted the girl’s face upward.  Seeing the smile there, the woman relaxed. 

 “Yes ma’am.  But I sure don’t understand boys.”  She glanced at Hannibal, who was looking at the two females as though they were both crazy. 

The woman shrugged her shoulders.  “Nor do I sometimes, Rachel.  But we do the best we can with them.  You two go on inside now.” 

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The fiddler started playing.  A sign to choose up partners.  The men, blindfolded, picked brightly colored calico ties from a basket and tied them on as armbands.  They searched the room to find the lady wearing the dress made from the same material.  Bowing and curtseying, men a little out of practice, ladies a little shy.  They linked arms and readied themselves for whatever dance the fiddler called.  The fiddler played a few starting notes to prime the fiddle and to tell the dancers what he’d chosen.  Swanee River.    

Hannibal heard the music start and looked heavenward.  A slow dance.  ‘Why couldn’t it be Cotton Eye Joe, or something where he didn’t actually have to put his arm around a girl.’  He looked at her.  ‘Well, she was nice enough, for a girl.  And she didn’t always act scared of everything. And she was Jed’s sister.’   Oh well.    A number of the adults looked at the two children and smiled, remembering their first dance.

 He took her hand and led her into the crowd of dancers.  She looked up at him, suddenly unsure.  He suddenly didn’t seem to be Hannibal, her brother’s little friend.    His eyes were older.  They startled her and she stopped walking. 

 “Rach?”  He looked at her wondering what he’d done now. 

She tried to smile at him and started walkin again. 

Hannibal fixed his hand at the girl’s waist.  She took his hand and held it tightly as he tried to remember and follow the steps his mother had taught him.  Every so often they would make eye contact.  Neither could find anything to say.  It was the longest dance either could imagine. 

Both children let out a deep sigh when the fiddler finally stopped.  The dancers clapped.   Hannibal led Rachel back to the other girls.  He bowed stiffly to the girl and she gave an unfamiliar curtsey as a response.   The other girls giggled again and surrounded Rachel. 

Breathing another sigh of relief that he had survived the ordeal, he went looking for his cousin.  He had a plan.  It was time. 

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“Han, you sure of this?”  Jed was watching his cousin tuck a shaker of black pepper into his pocket. 

“Shhh.  Someone’s gonna hear you.  It’s gonna be great, Jed.  You’ll see.   I’ll do it, you don’t have to.   You just have ta not tell anyone.” 

Hannibal and Jed worked their way through the crowded room to the tables heavily laden with food.   Hannibal’s brown eyes were full of mischief.  He was wearing what his Ma and Pa called his ‘gotta talk to the preacher about’ look. 

          Every time that look turned up, something happened.  Water pails mysteriously dumped contents on store owners.  The Spring Fair’s prize pig was seen wandering around the Sheriff’s office.   The teacher found a frog in her desk.  Right now that look was fixed on the big cut glass punch bowl resting innocently in the middle of the table. 

The boys approached the target.  Hannibal reached into his pocket and carefully took out the pepper shaker.  He cupped it in his hand, shielding his action from anyone but his cousin.  Loosening the top, he moved slowly and carefully to a place behind the table.   He waited for the music to start and for the people to start dancing.  He surveyed the room, looking in particular for his parents and Jed’s.  He found the Curry’s.  He found his Ma.  His Pa wasn’t anywhere.  He frowned and scrunched his face while he thought out his next step.  Maybe his Pa was outside smoking his pipe.  Yea that was it.  He was safe.  “Jed, keep watch for Pa.”  His voice was a whisper.  He slipped the top off the shaker and raised his hand.

“Ah, there you are son.  I was lookin’ for you.  What are you doin’ back there.”  His father’s voice came from somewhere behind him. 

Startled he dropped the shaker.   Instinctively Jed put up his hands to catch it.  Hannibal turned to find the voice, and hit Jed’s arm which in turn hit the shaker on it’s way down sending it directly into the full bowl of punch.  Hannibal heard the splash and turned back catching his cousin’s desperately unhappy blue eyes.  He squinted at Jed who rolled his eyes and nodded at the bowl.  Hannibal closed his eyes and thought about all the ways he could describe not having anything to do with this. 

 “Hannibal?  You all right, son?”  Daniel Heyes only saw that curious look on his oldest son’s face.  He knew it only too well.  He didn’t know for certain what was going on, but he knew in his heart that he’d find out fairly soon.

“Uh yea Pa.  Just dropped somethin’.  I mean on the floor.  Dropped somethin’ on the floor.”  He suddenly felt very warm again;  the collar threatened to choke him. 

“Well then come on out from behind there you two.”  He put his arm around his son’s shoulders and guided him out from behind the table.  He turned back to collect Jed the same way.  “Go on you two.   But stay out of trouble.” 

“Yes Pa.”

“Yes sir.”   Jed looked at Hannibal.

Hannibal shook his head furiously.  “Let’s get outta here.” 

“Han, I couldn’t catch it.  I didn’t see your Pa.  Honest.  They’re gonna be real mad aren’t they?  We’re never gonna get to do anything again are we Han?  They’re gonna lock us in our rooms forever.”  His blue eyes widened in fear at a sudden thought.  “Ya think they’ll give us breakfast, Han?” 

The two boys were sitting on the Hall’s front steps.  Jed looked miserable.  Like the entire world was just about to end.  And he’d been responsible for it.  He slouched over holding his head in his hands, his elbows propped up on his knees. 

“Nah, party’s almost over anyway.  Maybe they won’t even drink the punch.  Don’t worry Jed.  Nothin’s gonna happen.”  The confidence Hannibal heard in his voice came as a surprise.  Even to himself.

There were shouts and applause and laughter from inside the Hall.   “A toast to Emma and John decidin’ this night to become husband and wife.”  They heard the clink of the glasses.  Lots of glasses. 

They peeked in the window to see what all the noise was about.  Just in time to see practically everyone lift punch filled glasses. 

“They’re gonna kill us.”  Hannibal closed his eyes and waited for the end to come. 

It started slowly.  A few coughs.  A random sneeze.   The sound built rapidly to a crescendo of shouting and sneezing and choking never before heard in the small town. The town’s banker, a substantially sized gentleman, was hit by the store owner who was sneezing so hard and so often he had tears running down his face.  The bump, while not hard, was enough to send the banker into the food table which wasn’t designed to support that much weight.   Especially coming at it the way he did.  The crash made as the table buckled was loud enough to startle some of the horses tied to the post in front of the church.  Food went in all directions.  The punchbowl rolled to a stop in the corner, the pepper shaker still in the bottom. 

The two boys watched in amazement, smiles creasing their faces as they watched the chaos.  

People made their way out of the Hall into the cool night air.  Holding onto each other for support they continued choking and coughing as they made their way to their wagons. 

The two boys were laughing now, enjoying the scene.  Then the thing happened that neither could have imagined.  Hannibal watched his Ma and Pa stagger from the hall, followed closely by Jed’s folks who were holding Rachel between them.  All were red faced and coughing. 

“Han?”  Jed’s voice was weak.  

The two little boy smiles faded. 

Five faces turned simultaneously towards the two boys. 

“Hannibal Heyes.  Jedediah Curry.  You both come over here right this second.”   Bridgid Curry’s voice left no question as to whom she ‘knew’ had had something to do with this occurrence.  “What do you know about this?”

“Uh, ‘bout what, ma’am?”  Hannibal’s voice wasn’t quite as confident as it had been just a few moments before.  And he couldn’t quite make eye contact with his Aunt.

“I didn’t mean it Ma.  Honest.  Han’s arm hit mine and the shaker just went into the bowl.  Then Uncle Dan told us to go outside and…. I din’t mean for everyone to get sick Ma.”  Jed’s eyes were wide as saucers and brimming with tears as he spilled out the story. 

“We’ll talk about this later, young man.  You come with me right now.  When I get you home….” A very outraged mother took her young son by the arm and dragged him off with only a helpless backwards glance at his cousin.

“Uh, Ma.  Sure sounds like an accident…shame if Jed….” Hannibal watched his friend being hauled off.  He didn’t miss the miserable expression on Jed’s face. 

“Never you mind that.  I’m sure your Uncle James and Aunt Bridgid will take care of Jedediah.  You have your own explaining to do.”  Her hands on his shoulders were as much to steady herself as to scold him.  “Let’s get on home now.” 

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Hannibal tried to get his Ma and Pa to understand it had been an accident.  He’d tried everything.  But they just looked at him and he knew they knew.   He steeled himself for the whipping he knew he’d be getting.  But they’d surprised him and just sent him to bed.  How was it that just when he had them figured out, they went and surprised him. 

He lay there wide awake.  His younger brothers were fast asleep in the beds that lined the two walls opposite him in the room they shared.  He had to figure out how to fix this. 

He knew he heard crying.  He knew in his head the Curry farm was too far away.  But he heard it just the same.  “Aw Jed.  I’m sorry.  I’ll make it up to you.  I promise.”  He whispered a firm promise to his best friend.  He just knew that Jed had heard him. 

His Ma came in to check on the younger boys, Alexander and Conor.   Straightening covers, kissing a peaceful forehead, she smiled at the two of them. 

She sat on the edge of Hannibal’s bed, tucking him in.  “You’re lucky no one got hurt, you know that don’t you Hannibal.”   She brushed the hair off his forehead.   Her touch was so soft.  Made him feel real safe.  Her tucking him in. 

“Yes ma’am.  I’m real sorry Ma.”  He looked up at her.  He thought his Ma was the prettiest grown up lady he’d ever seen.  “Ma?”

“Yes, Hannibal.” 

“How come you call Jed and me ‘night and day’?  He’d been thinking about that for days now.  Seemed like a good enough time to get it cleared up.

She smiled down at the boy.  Always a question.  Answer one and there were three right behind it.  “Not now, darlin’.  Now’s the time for little boys to be saying their prayers and closing their eyes. 

 “Please Ma.  I’ll go right to sleep if you tell me.” 

He looked so earnest she had to laugh.  “You’ll be talking the corn off the cob one of these days.  But if you promise to go right to sleep.” 

He nodded furiously, the dark hair flopping back onto his forehead.  

“All right then.  Don’t know rightly how it came about.  It just did.  Jed was such a happy baby and still is.  Always smiling.  Making people feel good.  Just like a bright and shiny day.”

A deep frown crossed the boy’s face.   “What about me?”   He wasn’t sure he wanted to hear the answer.

 “You?”  Sometimes she just had to tease him.  The look on that small face told her now was not the time for that.  “Why you had the darkest eyes anyone had ever seen.  When you’d get mad they’d turn even darker, why they were dark as night itself.  And when you’d get happy they’d shine just like the moon.”  She leaned close to him and rubbed her nose against his.  They shared a smile.  One only known to mother and son.  “And when you’d get to planning some new mischief, why they sparkle like the stars in the night sky.”  She started tickling him.  He squirmed trying to get out of her grasp, laughing so hard tears rolled down his cheeks.   She loved the sound of her son’s laughter. 

“Ma, stop it.  Please.  Come on that tickles.  Ma!”   He wiped the tears from his face as she finally stopped.  “Aw ma.  I wish you wouldn’t do that.” 

“I know.  Why do you ‘spose I do it?   And now m’darlin’ it’s time for you to close those beautiful eyes.”  She looked at him tenderly. 

“I love you Ma.”  Hannibal suddenly threw his arms around the woman.  It was hard to tell who was more startled. 

“Why Hannibal.   I love you too darlin’.”  She hugged him for a long moment before settling him back onto his bed.  “Go to sleep now.”  She re-tucked the covers around him and sat watching him drift off.  She worried about this one.  So smart.  So serious.   So curious.  A dreamer.  It was good that Jedediah was his friend.  They were good for each other.  They’d take care of each other.  Making one more gentle attempt at brushing the dark locks from his